Well, I have made some decisions that are gonna either make things better or I'm gonna kick myself. I'm hoping things will just get better. I could really use some things going my way for once.
I have been persuing a management career at Publix for over a year and a half now. I truly felt this is what I needed to do for my kids and me. But seeing how this year has gone, I don't think this is the plan for me. I work a ridiculous schedule. There are days that I go where I don't see my kids at all. And quite frankly, nothing is worth that for me. Period. Those kids are what keep me going everyday. I am responsible for them and their well being. And that doesn't mean being an absentee parent. That is just not for me. I pray that I am making the best choice by going back to my job at Springhills fulltime. They have offered me a slot on 7-3 fulltime. And I just can't pass this opportunity up. I know that if things don't pan out with them I will still have Publix in my back pocket. I will not quit Publix. It is a great place to work, but it can't be my life right now. i have 3 kids needing me.
I have also decided that I can't be lazy anymore. I gotta get this butt back into shape. No more excuses. No more drive thrus. I gotta commit to being healthy for the kids and myself. I need to be a good example to my daughter about body image. She watches everything I do, so I want to make sure she keeps her self confidence. I already see her talking about her weight. Gotta nip that in the bud.
Today was my first run. I feel great. I did a lot more walking than running, but still. I got my butt out there. That's a huge step for me. I wanna keep going and I am a person who needs motivation, so I hope I will find fun ways to mix it up. Whether training for a 5k or working out with a friend.
