friendships

Well, I have been struggling in this area for a little bit now. Not that anyone would know because I am a very private person with my feelings. I love that I have so many new women in my life. It's been so much fun. For the first time in my life, I am trusting women and not worried as much about the preconceived ideas I had of women friends. I have always known that I should have women to lean on and depend on, but childhood hurts have pushed me away from them.
I am a person who loves close relationships, but doesn't necessarily feel that I have them. At least outside of family. I have my twin and my husband but other than that, I am not like other women who claim to have best friends. I think I expect a lot with that title. And that may be my own issue. I'm not quite sure.
I am not an extrovert. But once you get to know me, I open up. I tend to always assume what others think of me instead of just finding out. I overanalyze so much. Like now. Can't you tell? I want closeness, but at the same time I don't want to be smothered. I don't know if I am the only person like this. I just know that there is a need in my life and I don't know if this is the area. I like having multiple friends,because it mixes things up a bit. But I am envious of others who have that go-to person. That person you call when you have a problem. The person who knows you and won't judge you for your quirks. I feel like I am rambling, but it is hard to sort out what I am thinking and feeling. It's strange, but I am learning from it. I hope those reading this won't steer clear of the crazy woman writing this, but pray for God to make things clearer for her. To guide her.

Week Number 153

1) What is the most beautiful sound you’ve ever heard?Probably the first cry that came out of Matthew's (my youngest son) mouth when he woke up from a complicated seizure. He was hospitalized and no on could tell me if my child would be okay. I was scared I would never hear his little raspy voice again. I cried as soon as I heard it!

2) If you could stop loving someone, who would it be? I couldn't do that. It's not how I am.

3) What is the hardest transition you’ve ever had to make in your life? When I was split up from my twin sister, Candy after I finished my training in the Air Force. We were stationed at opposite sides of the country. I had no idea we would never live near each other again.


4) Show and Tell. What comes to mind first when you see this picture? Or, tell a story if it reminds you of one. I thought of the snowy days I miss back in Quincy, IL. I love sledding and don't get much of a chance to here in FL. 8)

Curious as a Cat: Week Number 153

Curious as a Cat: Week Number 153